Chapter 8: Discover
In young adulthood, married with kids, I maintained this practice of writing both privately and publicly, preserving parts of my identity, keeping them from being swallowed into the chaos of young children.
I want to write about important things, or about seemingly insignificant things in important ways.
For me, these two quotes (the first from Ann, the second from Charity) are related. I preserve parts of my identity apart from my writing. To do that, my strategy has been to write about seemingly insignificant things in important ways.
There are things I’m not ready to share. Honestly, I don’t know if I ever will be. But here’s a little secret: I write about those things all the time, just in other, insignificant ways—when I write about my dogs, that maple tree that died in the drought, these comforting gray days.
It’s like Oscar Wilde said, “We should treat all the trivial things of life seriously, and all the serious things of life with sincere and studied triviality.”
It’s the trivial things of life that add up to meaning. When a friend of mine was a missionary in China and we couldn’t write openly about what they were doing, it really wasn’t a problem. We emailed about the things we had always talked about–husbands, kids, books, fashion. And when my mom was dying, we didn’t talk about the big stuff (not much). We talked about family gossip and books and movies and, “Isn’t that lady’s shawl lovely?” And then my mom would strike up a conversation and get the woman’s life story.
Here’s a secret: If you want to know the things that I don’t want to share, it’s usually in my poetry. For example, my poem “God’s Country” was started after my cousin Ashley’s death, four miles north of Happy, Texas. On the drive home, through towns few Texans know, like Bronte, I thought of Utopia, a little further south. So I used the names of the towns—Happy and Utopia—as stand-ins for the things they evoke: happiness, paradise. I could write about grief while writing about the glorious sunrise at mile marker 95, where we pulled off, and my brother put up a cross. A lot of that didn’t make it’s way into the poem, but for me, it’s all still there.
The poet Robert Frost did that much better than I. His poems float lightly upon an ocean of sadness. All he asks you to do is look at the wooden boat and the sky, consider where that empty bottle came from.
Sally Clark says
This is a beautiful post!
Ann Kroeker says
Wow, this feels like you could use it as an introduction to your book, Megan. Thank you for sharing the way your writing life connects with mine, with Charity’s, with poetry, with imagery and metaphor. You teach, here, and model ways of writing.
Rex Graham says
Lovely read, and quotes, Megan. Here’s another quote I like:
“You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.”
― Barbara De Angelis
Diana Trautwein says
Oooh, I really love this one, Megan. Thanks for showing us behind the curtain a little bit. I love seeing how your processing comes out onto this screen, Megan. Please keep doing it.
Oh, my goodness, how have I missed all the way to chapter eight? Sometimes it just feels like I live in a vacuum and life just passes me by. After this one, though, I’m going to have to go back and read them all. And the poem. Your lovely words on that have nearly done me in on this tired night. Love you.
Jenni Hi-Huan says
This tumbleweed still wrapped in her blanket stumbled on you! Glad to find you & would live to read & learn more. Thank you for this series!