34. Not Ready

On Valentine’s Day my dog turns 13.

I purchase her yearly registration and wonder

if I should spend more for the lifetime fee.

Surely she won’t be here next year, will she?

I buy heartworm pills in six-month packages

rather than the 12-month size, even though it costs more.

I don’t want it to hurt too badly when she goes.

I want to be able to say that I was ready.


Dad refills Mom’s medication in 90-day increments —

not 30 — and not because it’s cheaper.

He just renewed the registration on her car.

If he could buy her a lifetime membership to anything

anywhere, right now, he would.

So that it won’t hurt too badly when she goes.

So that he will be able to say that he was ready.